Saudade

The clouds of uncertainty were inevitably heavy

and the rain seemed endless.

I thought hope, alone, would remedy the storm —

that the forgotten rays of our love

would peak through the clouds just enough

to put out the despondency.

I tried to resist the gale,

fight to stand upright

and never give up.

I tried to tell you all the things

I kept untouched and unbothered within me for so long — but time, truly, is of the essence.

Saudade.

The fibers of our past slowly detach from me

as I tuck away these sentiments

into the most tenebrous corner of my mind.

I wish to let you understand

how I was silently broken by your idea of goodbye.

You left me hanging

by the words you left unspoken

and now I’m here.

The rain has ceased, maybe just temporarily.

But at least there’s a sort of peaceful tranquility in the air.

With reluctant gratitude,

I gently lower to the ground — one knee at a time.

I bow down and embrace the stillness.

My final stance before sweet surrender.